Nicola Andrews

Te Toi Uku

 

I’m looking to score, scrolling eBay again

as dusk rolls around, Sunday silvering slip

cast into yearning for tūī, and temuka too.

 

Scrutinizing the listings, I transform from

Antiques Roadshow enthusiast to curator,

family historian. That’s Nan’s cup, our plates.

 

One minute you’re a kid in Henderson, turning

your nose up at powdered milk in ironstone.

Then you’re thrown into a cyberwar, bidding

 

against those Herne Bay hobbyists, who

adorn their mantels with rows of chalky vases

in matte and monochrome. No longer cradling

 

armfuls of tulips, the tea rooms have closed.

Funny, how luxury chips away at domesticity,

and the rich sport the veneer of the everyday.

 

I watched a doco about the factory once, and

spotted my whanaunga, the one whose painted

sign still decorates our marae. She, a steady fire:

 

honey-glazed and smiling, painting ashtrays while

jostling bub on her hip. Workers thrust their hands

into the Whau, dodging tūnā, dredging clods of clay

 

that yield under careful fingertips, before blooming

above the wheel’s circumference. I’d be happy spinning

teacups and going on smoko, too. Open up, I’ll be there.

 

Funny, such tender refinement in porcelain, and at odds

with our Westie rep—but everyone wants us, our radiant

kauri gum, wild magnetic beaches. Our wine and velocity.

 

I bid on a blue butter dish, and consider my whanaunga,

carving corridors through the sky, the flightpath perhaps

resembling the gently curved neck of a white swan.

 

Living abroad, in a city of earthquakes, collecting

vintage breakables is my biggest flex. It’s an absurd

love, knowing that any day could bring a shattering.

 





Nicola Andrews

Nicola Andrews (Ngāti Paoa, Pākehā) is a librarian currently living on Ramaytush Ohlone territory. They are the author of chapbooks SENTIMENTAL VALUE (2023, Ghost City Press), AGAPE (2024, Rinky Dink Press), and Māori Maid Difficult (2024, Tram Editions). Their writing has been supported by communities including VONA, Kenyon Review, and Tin House. Find them on Instagram as @poi_division or online.